untitled.

weird feelings. i am currently @ the Hill uploading photos on f'book. i just left the mall. with a new job. i will be starting charlotte rusee on monday. this was exactly what i wanted; a job in retail. i have never done it and i wanted to try it. all my friends that have done retail hate it to death. that is fine. i really wanted a job that was the complete opposite of ERAC and c.russe is that. plus, i want to spend that xtra change on clothes and leisure activites. so with a discount i figure working retail would be the best for me. i am excited.

i am also excited about the estelle and solange concert on 3-11. and also dari's bday. her 4th anniversary of her 21st bday.

i am also excited about mike. he works wonders and he is sweet and great. but most importantly (2 me) he is a real muthafukka and i dig that. he is simple but not simple in the mind. he challenges me and he breaks things down so elementary that i understand it. and he never intends to control me bcuz he knows that drives me bonkers. i really like the fact that he keeps me sane and he knows he is to leave me to be me (make sense?) he doesn't force me into a label that is not assigned to me. like old man travis did..and all this of this scares me. i used to spend too much time wondering (before travis) whether i was 2 good for any man i came into contact with. and then post travis, i questioned whether or not any man was TOO GOOD for ME.
and now, i am positioned on the middle of the see-saw, trying to envision what will happen in this realationship. when am i gonna be at the bottom of the see-saw, comprimising myself for the sake of mike and vice-versa. i just dont want to be faint minded to think that this relationship is mos def going to end with 2.5 kids, two story home with a picket fence and all that laa-laa. i am trying to be real that if this shit don't work out, what am i going to learn.

but i am actually pushing to make it work. and mike makes me feel that my effort given is much recognized and i love it.

hmm..whom to vote 4?

Late last week, I was lisenting to my daily installment of Micheal Baisden when he said that as a society, America is dumb. He was referring to the 2008 race to the Oval. I thought it was interesting of him to say that. I began to ponder (as usual), that this presidental race is not really about who people want to be president but most people are voting against the person they don't want to see in D.C. Think about. Most Democrats don't want another Republican in office because of the preceeding elect that made decisions that were, in the opinions of Dems, irrational and whimsical. And then most Republicans can't stand the idea of a Black man being president so they will vote for McCain, even though they do not really care for John. I am all for voting for the canidate you WANT to see in office if based on facts. But people want to vote for the pretty face (circa 1960, JFK + Nixon first televised presidental debate) or the status quo (possible 2008?). Again, I do not endorse one or the other. I read up on both canidates regularly. I just think its gross how the American society is so worried about who they don't want to see in the White House, that they disregard the facts, actions and sayings of the person they plan on voting for. Since the basis of supporting the canidate is to continue to perpetuate the status-quo dominance that has been in steadfast rule since the founding roots of this country. Can we get a Laurence Fishbourne Wake Up Call, ya'll?

To Be Ordinary is a Mental State, Anyone Can be EXTRAordinary!

I read the American Legacy article on the Freedom Rides of 1961. The goal of the rides were to challenge segregation on interstate buses and terminals thourghout the South, which would accomplish a desgregating of bus depots, train stations and airports from Virginia to Texas.There were several bus bombings that took place to discourage the Freedom Riders from their tactics. One in particular was in Anniston, AL and these distracting acts simply encouraged the Freedom Riders to continue on their plight of transportaion freedom.Many riders were arrested in Jackson, MS when the Freedom Rides would go through that section of Mississippi. Rather than posting bail, the riders elected to stay in jail. The activists were relocated ot Parchman, a notorious maximum security prison. Half of the prisoners were Black and other half was White, 40% were between the ages of 18 & 21, and there were a 1/4 women. Despite the deplorable conditions, activists "organized study hours, fashioned chess sets out of paper and bread and sang freedom somgs to boost morale," (American Legacy,38).

__________________Eric Etherige, one of the original Mississippi Freedom Riders decided to photograph 100 people from the Freedom Rides in a book, titled Breach of Peace: Potraits of the 1961 Mississippi Freedom Riders. Etherige took current photos of the irders and set them against their mug shots when they were booked in Parchman Jail of Mississippi. He also asked them why they participated in the rides when the reprucussions were known.One of my favorite to read was that on Frank Halloway. He stated:

"Nonviolence wasn't necessarily a way of life, but it was a tactic. We felt like it was a tactic that worked...I didn't feel like anybody needed to reward me or congratulate me or pat me on my back. I did what I felt like I had to do."--- Frank Holloway

__________________This excerpt proves how being ordinary IS a mental state. As corny as it sounds, you are what you YEARN to be. No one can make you do anything. No once can force you to advocate something you don't care for. But trust, when you feel an urgency to push for something that is against the current status quo, it will hit you so hard like a bag of solid bricks to your abdomen. You will push so hard to see the bearing of the fruit of your beliefs.

no love sinceighteensixty5

it was weird.
erykah's song called no love on her Baduizm disc hit me hard the other day while traveling to work. it details the entire trial of my last r'ship with mr.T.. i feel that is a good name for his ass becuz his ass was as fake as the gold MISTER T would wear (and becuz his first name started with the letter..lol).

as dari said, his ass had me BELIEVING in shit that I DON'T believe in.
like translating dreams/missions into reality. he had this thing with wanting a clothing line and i have this thing for wanting to uplift the black community.

hence, when we combined we combusted with the idea of a social awarness blog...

that shit don't erase when your r'ship does, hmph!

lol

anyways...the moral is that i have robbed the articles i wrote for the blog on (http://sinceighteensixtyfive.blogspot.com/) and am going to post it here...

i designed the blog.
and im going to delete that sun'of'a'bitch.

thank you.

"...but i don't usually," -biggie.

i wonder.

*what would happen if Tupac arrived at the Notorious premiere...

check out this site:
http://www.faceinhole.com/us/

i love it .

16*

16 things you don't know about me?

quite random.

1. i want an Altima coupe with a sun roof and then a Audi coupe with a convertible top. in that order.

2. i am obsessed with Triscuits and sushi.

3. i have flat feet.

4. i'm overprotective of those that i love. i will fight. (sum'thang i never thought possible.)

5. i want to adopt. or birth 3 boys.

6. rihanna is the baddast bitch. right behind kimora. and me of course ;-]




7. i love goodwill stores. i live there. Prada wallet was found there. I orgasm. profusley when one is found.

8. i want to fly straight to Durban South Africa. and chill at the beach right NOW! (its summer there)

9. LOOOOOOOVES fishing!!!!

10. i want and iTouch. (wishlist :)

11. i hate those purses that look like a cow was used to make em.

12. i will do ANYTHING around the house but cut grass. allergic.

13. i wanna bed Lupe Fiasco. more so his music than him.

14. i know EVERY word to EVERY song on the Miseducation of Lauryn Hill.

15. never have i worn weave.

16. said i love you. but always questioned the validity.