i just wanna reach and touch

i am in this weird, sound place in my life.
i'm learning to take charge and do things the way i see fit.

but i need to work on letting others teach me the best way to do things...

i know i need something, i am just unsure as to what that is.

the lord is here with me always and i've been thirsting to be there for him too.
oddly enough, i am not the most religous person but i am pretty spritual. and i have been NEEDING church in my life.

i don't care WHAT church i go to but just one where i can talk to him and touch him, metaphorically.

i am hungry for that.
the feelings i hunger for have never been fed to me by any man.
god is the only being that can fill me with what my heart desires and needs.
i am never mad at god.
i understand his role in people's lives, especially mine.


i just to need to stop being scared to open my arms and touch him.

he is god afterall!

even when no one would never touch me he has :)

it's gonna be a lovely day, like Bill Withers sang about!

Don't hate the playa, hate the game..

so.
there is this thing called a cutty buddy in my life..
and the rules were as follows:
1.no catching feelings
2.no catching feelings
3.no catching feelings

&& guess what?

i've caught feelings.

i've been in a rock 'n' roll mood..

i used to listen to Jagged Little Pill alllllll day everyday...

and i'm listening to it now and I LOVE it.